a lot of negative shit has happened to me in the pass few weeks that made me want to force myself to try to become more optimistic, just to be able to get through things a little easier, and well, it didn’t really work because i’m too much of a realistically negative person, hahaha. but ever since i started cramming to ace my last astronomy test, i’ve been able to look at a lot of things differently. without having to twist anything or fake any feelings just to make myself feel better. learning about and looking up into the sky really puts my problems into perspective. everything that i find a big deal right now, is not a big deal at all compared to the universe. life is just perfect when i’m being mind-fucked by wondering what could be beyond those galaxies. i tried telling some of my other friends about that and they just thought i was high on something, hahah. i mean they sorta understand, but they don’t believe that i actually see things that way now. maybe ‘cause it’s so sudden and i never really talk about life that way to them and i’ve been smokin’ up too much almost whenever i’m in their sight. LOL my grandpa just farted and it made a funny sound. but anyway, i think lately i’ve been starting to sound like some sort of hippie to my buddies, that’s why they’re not so used to it. i talked a lot about peace and shit and how life is good lmfao i don’t know what is up but i really like how i’m dealing with life right now. i mean i still hate a lot of things, i still love competitions and violence, and i’m still revengeful as hell, but i don’t know, i guess i just know how to put a lot of it to the side for later, in an even better and easier way now, or so until i can get my car, heheh. “out of sight, out of mind” kinda thing. but i’m definitely still the same person. i still wanna punch the shit out of most people. the only thing different is that i got more control now. things that used to bother me so much before don’t bother me so much now. i guess i just finally realized how short life really is. “go big or go home” was how i always liked to do it. but now it’s also how i should always do it. i highly recommend you all to take at least one astronomy class when you’re in college if you aren’t and or haven’t already, LOL. or at least just study about it on your own free time. i’ve done a lot of studying that just made me go “wow”. you might think it’s crazy or stupid that i’ve changed the way i look at life just because of some astronomy study, but trust me, when you study astronomy, you study beyond the world, and when you study beyond the world, you study yourself.